Move

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything. Truthfully, I haven’t had much to say. I’ve spent the last year in survival mode with my faith. Just doing what I had to to get by. I have been on mountaintops, but I have also been in some deep valleys. There were days I felt like life couldn’t get any better, but there were days I couldn’t help but question God. He had blessed my little family beyond measure (mentally insert an adorable pic of my beautiful baby boy and his big sister here). How could I ask for more when God finally blessed us, in his timing, with Emmett? My faith and my walk has been stagnant. I’ve been ambling aimlessly with no direction. I recently realized that I have let myself be complacent in my faith and comfortable with this aimless wandering I’ve been doing. It’s so easy to lose yourself in the wandering. After a while, the hunger pains and thirst subside. You just meander and accept the status quo. I am guilty.

Complacency and comfort are so easy to let take hold and guide your path because they’re easy. It’s easy to live the day to day and not strive for more. It’s easy to follow your plans and your timing. It’s easy when things are good. What about when God shakes things up? Personally, I got pretty comfortable sitting on the sidelines and watching others move forward. Sitting still was comfortable. Lately, God has really been dealing with me and my future. As women, we are always thinking and planning 10 steps ahead. We have contingencies to the contingency plan. We think things through based on our future goals or ideals. Men have it so easy sometimes because they don’t do this. Anyone else want to just punch their husbands sometimes because all they really care about or think about is the now? Your husband lays down at night and falls asleep immediately while your schedule for tomorrow, your anxiety about finances, your plans for the future, all the little day to day things that no one else in your home ever thinks about are running through your mind. You have bills planned out and scheduled to pay. You know your kids’ sports schedules and have the day planned down to the minute. You have the meals planned out for the week. You know down to the penny how much is in your bank account (or not in it). What if God is calling you to move? What if He is calling you to get out of the day to day and make a drastic change? Are you listening to His call? Are you okay with being uncomfortable, changing the status quo, rearranging the schedule, and readjusting that 10 year plan because God said “move”?

Recently God has called me to move. Move away from a job where my financial situation was fairly stable and change my priorities. I have had many sleepless nights and a lot of prayer time lately trying to reason with God. Why is He leading me into this uncertainty? I don’t feel safe and comfortable with this change. My finances are taking a huge hit. How is this going to affect my family? Am I sure this is where God is calling me? I keep asking for signs and at this point, I’ve received several. There’s no denying this is where God is leading me but it is terrifying. Why is it so easy to trust God with basically anything BUT finances? I think for women, it messes with our innate thought process to plan ahead. If we don’t have control over our schedules and future, what do we have control over?

During a recent 3 AM prayer time (and possibly a little wrestling with God), He gave me a couple verses. Verses we’ve heard 1,000 times, but they are what I needed to give me peace in my uncertainty.

Isaiah 40:31 says “but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” When you get tired of complacency, run to the Father. He will renew and restore you because He holds your future in His hands. You will not tire or grow weary when in His will because He has already ordered your steps. When God calls you to make a move in your life that is causing you uncertainty or fear remember what Phillipians 4:6-9 says, ““Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”

‭When you’re walking in the path of righteousness, by faith and a pure heart for God’s will to be done in your life, God will give you peace. When I stopped wrestling with God over the path He is leading me, peace overcame me. When God told me to move and I moved, I found peace. I found discomfort, but I found purpose. No more aimless meandering through my days living a life of complacency. Life has meaning and my soul has peace again. So, I say all of this to say, “When God says move, you move in faith. He will not lead you to failure. He orders your steps and holds your future in the palm of His hand. Your finances are in His hands. Your family is in His hands. So what are you waiting for? Move.”